daisy undone.

i miss you. so much. and i know it's stupid. i know i could let go if i really wanted to. i know i could be happy. but happy just seems so far away right now, something i really can't grasp. seven months on and i still find it strange without you. it still hasn't sunk in yet that your gone and you're not coming back. you ignore me now. and it's hard. and i know it's because i hurt you, but can't you understand that you hurt me too? which is why it can never happen again. it's hard for me to accept this as the right decision, but somehow, i know it is. you were never good for me. and it's hard for me to admit it but it's the truth. so when you told me that you still loved me, please know how hard it was for me to lie to you. i loved you then, i love you now, and i'll love you yet.